Pennies

I've heard a little bit about "Pennies from Heaven", but honestly I hadn't given it much thought.  It's not that I don't believe in heaven or an afterlife, I've just never had a situation where I would think about it.  The last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions for me.  In the times of sadness, anger, or loneliness - I would find a penny.

The first time, I felt more anger than I've ever felt.  Call it the MamaBear effect.  If I think someone is hurting my son, I want to fix the problem and hurt the person who is hurting my son.  Even if my son is 20.  Even if the person who I am made to believe is hurting him is his father.  In the midst of this anger and MamaBear righteous rage, I saw a penny.  As I picked it up, a calm settled over me.  And I was reminded there is always two sides of story and usually the truth is found somewhere in the middle. 

Another time, I was sitting in the recliner feeling really lonely.  This is my Honey's busy time of year and he's only been home for a few days at a time since June.  I'm an only child and I've never done alone very well.  Most days I can keep myself busy and not think about it too much.  Some days, yes - during those dreaded PMS days - I can't shake it.  This also happened to be a very busy day for my Honey.  He was exhausted from working a 12 hour day in 100 degree heat.  He fell asleep almost as soon as he got back to his hotel room for the night.  And didn't call me.  By 9:00 that night, I was literally a blubbering mass of tears.  And then my phone dinged.  It was a text message from one of my closest friends.  When I picked my phone up, there was a penny on the table under my phone.  I know it wasn't there when I sat down earlier that evening.  Once again, a calm settled over me and I was reminded I am truly blessed and loved.

Once more, I was upset because after a wonderful weekend with my Honey, he was about to leave to go finish another job.  I didn't know if he would be gone for a week or a month.  I was trying not to show how upset I was, but I'm no poker player.  Every emotion I feel shows on my face.  There in the grass beside the driveway, a penny shined in the sunshine.

Are these pennies from heaven?  My grandparents are there.  I have several uncles and aunts that I was very close to in heaven.  My Honey's Mom passed away about six years ago.  I didn't get to meet her, but from what I've been told about her, there's no doubt she's in heaven as well.  I honestly don't know if these pennies are just there by happy coincidence or if they are placed there to remind me how blessed and loved I am.  I'm just glad they keep popping up when I least expect them and need them the most.