I've heard a little bit about "Pennies from Heaven", but honestly I hadn't given it much thought. It's not that I don't believe in heaven or an afterlife, I've just never had a situation where I would think about it. The last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions for me. In the times of sadness, anger, or loneliness - I would find a penny.
The first time, I felt more anger than I've ever felt. Call it the MamaBear effect. If I think someone is hurting my son, I want to fix the problem and hurt the person who is hurting my son. Even if my son is 20. Even if the person who I am made to believe is hurting him is his father. In the midst of this anger and MamaBear righteous rage, I saw a penny. As I picked it up, a calm settled over me. And I was reminded there is always two sides of story and usually the truth is found somewhere in the middle.
Another time, I was sitting in the recliner feeling really lonely. This is my Honey's busy time of year and he's only been home for a few days at a time since June. I'm an only child and I've never done alone very well. Most days I can keep myself busy and not think about it too much. Some days, yes - during those dreaded PMS days - I can't shake it. This also happened to be a very busy day for my Honey. He was exhausted from working a 12 hour day in 100 degree heat. He fell asleep almost as soon as he got back to his hotel room for the night. And didn't call me. By 9:00 that night, I was literally a blubbering mass of tears. And then my phone dinged. It was a text message from one of my closest friends. When I picked my phone up, there was a penny on the table under my phone. I know it wasn't there when I sat down earlier that evening. Once again, a calm settled over me and I was reminded I am truly blessed and loved.
Once more, I was upset because after a wonderful weekend with my Honey, he was about to leave to go finish another job. I didn't know if he would be gone for a week or a month. I was trying not to show how upset I was, but I'm no poker player. Every emotion I feel shows on my face. There in the grass beside the driveway, a penny shined in the sunshine.
Are these pennies from heaven? My grandparents are there. I have several uncles and aunts that I was very close to in heaven. My Honey's Mom passed away about six years ago. I didn't get to meet her, but from what I've been told about her, there's no doubt she's in heaven as well. I honestly don't know if these pennies are just there by happy coincidence or if they are placed there to remind me how blessed and loved I am. I'm just glad they keep popping up when I least expect them and need them the most.
